There’s only three things I regret in life:
- Not going to a yoga retreat in Costa Rica with my friend Laura (because I thought I was being responsible by saving my money. Stupid!)
… - Spilling fish oil on a shirt and then washing it in the regular wash. DON’T EVER DO THIS!!!! It makes ALL your clothes reek of dead fish for months.
… - Picking up a hitchhiker.
But I suppose if I wanted to be a minimalist, I would say there is actually only ONE thing I regret in life – ignoring my intuition.
Because in all those situations, my intuition was guiding me down the right path but I chose to ignore.
So back to the hitchhiker.
I was vacationing on a small island off the B.C. coast with my significant other and we had just finished a beautiful day hike along a remote beach trail. We were heading back to our cabin along an old, deserted logging road when we spotted a dude hitchhiking…in the middle of nowhere. Weird right?
He looked like an old hippy and at first glance seemed harmless.
A soft voice in the back of my heart said “fuck it, just keep driving” but my mind said “he’s probably a local hippy and hitchhikes all the time. If you don’t pick him up who will? This is the middle of nowhere! Be kind and helpful for once in your life…”
I asked my significant other how he felt about picking him up. He said “it’s your call”. Which is his way of saying if this shit goes south, it’s on you.
I’d never picked up a hitchhiker before. It was something I always considered dangerous but this was different. I was on a small island where everyone knew each other, I had my burly boyfriend with me and this guy just looked like a harmless local. How could this possibly go wrong?
So I pulled over and picked him up. Over the course of our 20 minute drive, I learned four things about him:
- His #1 goal was to return to Alberta and get back on his meds.
… - His DNA was part wolf and he was on the island to commune with the wolf packs. Here’s a snippet:“I can run with the wolves because I’m part wolf and they recognize me as one of them. But don’t you try it, okay? Promise me you won’t try it. They would rip you to shreds. I can do it because I’ve got wolf DNA.”
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- He was certain we were being followed by “dark government agents” in a black SUV and that they were trying to run me off the road. Yet there were no other vehicles around (!)
… - He was bleeding from a large dog bite on his arm.
Needless to say, I spent the entire drive tightly gripping the steering wheel and praying he wouldn’t murder us.
(*please note: I do realize that statistically, very few mentally ill people are actually dangerous. And I don’t intend to portray people with mental health issues as “scary” people that should be avoided. This is simply my experience and how it felt to me at the time).
It ended well – we dropped him off at the ferry terminal and he thanked us profusely for the ride and left. But that is the LAST TIME I ever pick up a hitchhiker!
So what did I learn from this? Two things.
My intuition was a soft voice – not a loud one.
I experienced my intuition as a slight feeling of just wanting to keep driving. My intuition didn’t shout NO! DON’T DO IT! Instead it murmured just keep driving.
I think we often expect our intuition to be loud and clear. But intuition communicates through inklings and hunches, not bellowing orders.
My intuition’s worst enemy is my desire to be polite.
Honestly, I have lost count of the times I’ve ignored my intuition for the sake of “being polite”. From my run in with a masturbator at the local pool (a story for another time!) to picking up this mentally unstable hitchhiker, I often favor courting danger over possibly hurting someone’s feelings.
This desire for politeness is a terrible affliction, especially when it overpowers our survival instincts.
Intuitive information is often irrational.
When my friend Laura invited me to go to Costa Rica with her, my intuition said “yes! do it!” but my rational mind said “are you crazy? You need to save your money for a house.”
That time I ran into a pervert at the pool, my intuition told me “this guy is creepy. Leave the steam room now.” But my rational mind said “he hasn’t done anything weird, so relax.” 20 seconds later things got weird.
Your intuition sees past appearances and “facts” to the raw truth of a situation. And while it can sometimes seem like ignoring your intuition is the easiest option in the short term, it never is.
Intuitive Tarot 101
The next time your doing a Tarot reading, be aware that any intuitive information you get may be impolite and irrational!
If you choose to only communicate stuff that makes perfect sense and won’t make your client uncomfortable, you’re tossing a wet blanket on your intuitive flame.
For many years I shied away from communicating what my intuition was telling me during a Tarot reading IF that information might be upsetting or intrusive. This was a mistake!
For example, when I realized one of my clients was planning on breaking up with her dud boyfriend, I avoided saying anything specific about it because she hadn’t asked about her relationship (she’d asked for a “general reading”) and I didn’t want to pry. So of course the reading lacked spice and intrigue š
But I’ve learned from my mistakes. Now I’m more likely to pass on the info my intuition is serving up like I did in this reading, even if it blows back in my face.
Tell me about YOU…
When was the last time you ignored your intuition and regretted it? Tell me in the comments below!
Ignoring my intuition (or overriding it with ‘stuff I learned from books), almost killed my reading. The more I learned, the more lacklustre my readings became. They were functional and got to the heart of the issue, and that was all. It took a day with a very good friend of mine who gave me a very good talking to before an afternoon of ‘Go on Fay, SAY IT’ readings, that I got back on track.
It gave me a very good excuse to purchase a couple of decks that depart from any kind of traditional imagery to get me out of the rut – and it worked. It takes balls to read using intuition, to depart from the tight structures, formulae and correspondences of the systems, but grabbing the nettle and going for it has given me back my Tarot mojo!
This was a super article, and a brave one. Intuition has become a bit of a dirty word lately (not quite as dirty as the word psychic I guess), and I reckon you grabbed the nettle here!
A few days ago I was driving around and decided to go to the beach, suprisingly no one was there, well maybe a few people, and then this guy walked past me and whispered into my ears “Do not go near the people” my guts were like why not? So I went towards the people obviously and then they all turned around and stared at me for like a minute before going back to doing some wierd tribal looking dance o.o Creepiest part of my life right there.
That kind of sounds like an odd dream the way you describe it. Weird!
I did a quick one-card reading about how I should approach growth in the company I just started working for. I drew the knight of pentacles. Whatever this card means to you, at that moment my intuition told me āJust stand fast, perform your duty quietly, and donāt charge inā. I ignored it, and not two days later an opportunity presented itself for me to share some ideas. They were poorly received and I gained nothing, perhaps even lost brownie points for trying to impose my ideas on the standard everyday process at the office. Iāve learned to trust my reading.
Recently. For the past few months co-worker (different department) that I rarely got to see kept hitting me and others up to go out. I should have gone out with her. Gotten to know her as a person. My life isnāt *that* busy – it really is – but when you want to make time for something that matters, you can and do. Now I will never have the chance. She committed suicide over the weekend. She was 22. Logic over-rode my intuition – my loud voice said what does a 38 year old have in common with a 22 year old? I donāt go out with other co-workers – even in my department. Iām a home-body and value any quiet time I get over social time. – all excuses – I know I couldnāt have prevented anything if she was that far gone but I would have known her, just a little better. So thatās the worst thing thatās happened to date. And we did have something in common. I found help for it and it succeeded. She did not.
Erica, I’m so sorry to hear that. What a sad, tragic story. I can relate to you being a homebody though – I’m the same and when I worked in an office I often dodged social events because I found them exhausting.
When my oldest daughter came home with her current boyfriend. A little voice in my head warned, ‘Cringe alert, something’s a bit off here. Shields up!’, but I figured I was just being paranoid and blew it off. Turns out he’s actually a vampire with ‘special blood’ (What kind of blood do other vampires have?) ( O?O ) Wonder if he knew your hitchhiker, cuz he said the government was after him, too. Because of the ‘special blood’, of course..Mind you, this was waaayyy before the paranormal vampire/shifter craze hit. Yea, took us a while to get rid of him.
Wow! Some striking similarities here! I bet he was in his element when the Twilight/Vampire Diaries craze hit.
I can’t remember the last time I didn’t listen to my intuition. Just last week my intuition was telling me that this is not the time to make a job changed. And it was right. I’m just had a interview and the person who interviewed me just had a very bad vibe to me. At the time I could not seem to figure out what it was about this person. Until this last Monday. I hit me in the middle of my head. So I knew that I was not meant to take that position. And just too day I got that email stating that I did not got at job. And a new position was created for me at my place of employment now. So thank you intuition for this.